Morning check in

Morning! This 5am wake up seems to be a thing. Totally exhausted and pain levels are at off the scale after our little adventure at Chasewater yesterday.

So much so, I couldn't face the stairs again last night and our super sofa and heated blanket became my nest.

No unwelcome gifts (yet) from the cats. Although one has just blessed me with a stinky in the cat litter and left via the cat flap...cheers!

So this one woman wide awake club is going to take her pain killers, wipe away the tears and watch the sun rise and listen to the beautiful dawn chorus.

That's after I find a way of removing the offending poo in the littler which is kinda killing the whole vibe.

Today's Intentions:

I'd love to say planting those beautiful plants I bought yesterday so I can create my little garden oasis. But my fatigue levels are more than on empty. Rest, sleep repeat is the code of the day so I can see the doc and hopefully have the energy to go to BTC planning.

Three good things

1. No gifts from the cats (other than the litter stinky)
2. A beautiful sunrise & birdsong
3. My heated blanket not only for sleep but to soothe my pain.

Affirmations

• It's okay to not be okay, (feeling blue this morning)
• Rest is my best friend
• Be kind to myself
• It's ok to cry: just don't damage your new lashes.

Evening Reflection

Today has been a long and emotional day for many reason. We can now add rheumatoid arthritis to my ever growing list of issues in my hands YAY. But I'm grateful for..

Gratitude corner

• the sunrise and birdsong
• For my hubsters love, care, cuddles and for listening to my rants,wiping my tears and helping to rationalise my thoughts and cooking a gorgeous ramen for dinner
• For a super doctor who's adjusted my pain meds  which will hopefully help the relentless pain. 

Hopes for the new day

• A good night's sleep.
• To feel rested when I wake (that's up there as as likely as a lottery win)
• For these new pain meds to be more effective