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Wednesday 1st April 2026 - I'm still here. Still trying

Sha, the Wheely Happy Aardvark, waves at the camera with a tired but genuine smile. She's wearing a colourful patterned head wrap and a cosy grey knit, shot in warm lamplight — the kind of lighting that says "it's late, I nearly didn't do this, but here I am anyway." 💜

💜 Still Here. Still Trying. 💜

Right. So. I recorded a vlog tonight.

I'll be honest with you — it wasn't planned, and it wasn't polished, and at one point I was wrestling with a microphone like it had personally offended me. But sometimes you just need to press record and say the thing, you know?

Here it is, if you want to watch:

So. It's been a rough week.

A really rough week. The kind where you sleep more than you're awake and still wake up exhausted. The kind where your body just... isn't cooperating, and there's not a lot you can do about that except lie there and wait for it to pass.

I've had to duck out of things. I've been quieter than usual on here. And I wanted to come on and say — not to make excuses, but just to be honest — that I'm struggling a bit right now.

I've also got an MRI coming up on Tuesday at Cannock Chase Hospital. I switched hospitals to cut down the waiting time, which honestly felt like a small win in itself, even if Tuesday is now slightly terrifying. That's the thing about chronic illness, isn't it? You celebrate the admin victories because sometimes they're all you've got.

I can't promise I'm going to bounce back to full posting mode in the next few days. I can't promise I'll be firing on all cylinders. But I can promise I'm still here. Still smiling — mostly. Still trying to make my way through what is, right now, a genuinely confusing and difficult time.

And here's the thing. I know so many of you are going through it too. That's not me projecting — I know, because you tell me. And that's exactly why I pressed record tonight instead of just staring at the ceiling. Because being quiet and pretending everything's fine isn't what this space is for.

We go through it together. One for all and all for one and all that.

KOKO. 💜

Three Good Things Today:

  1. I pressed record. Even when it was hard. That counts.
  2. Tuesday's MRI is booked — one step closer to some answers, hopefully.
  3. You lot. Always you lot.

Today's mantra:

"Showing up is enough. Even when showing up just means pressing record in your pyjamas."

Kindness costs nothing. Share the love. KOKO 💜 Love, Sha x aka The Wheely Happy Aardvark

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